Every day I'm tumblin'

queersecrets:

text: FUCK THIS SHIT. I spend every day wishing I wasn’t alive.  I keep putting one foot in front of the other for family and friends.  Never for myself.  But for what?  Why was I born? Why do I keep on doing this? Things aren’t going to get any better.  I want to come out as trans, but don’t see myself ever doing it.  I’m asexual; by no means the end of the world—but right now I feel so alone. I have enough money for a gun.  Instead of all the stalling I’ve been doing, I should just go and buy it.

You say you feel alone, but that you are living for your family and friends. Having been suicidal myself I know that depression makes you feel secluded in a crowded room, but the fact that you acknowledge your social group is very, very promising. Why not consider talking to one of them about how you feel? You never know who will be able to hook you up with counseling services, or will just be the support that you need. It’s normal for people to feel alone in their pain, but the truth is that EVERYONE has pain, and someone out of those everyones might just have the resources to help you.

God bless. I’ll put you on my prayer list. :3